Aliveness

I am very tired. Aliveness is how Real one is (as a living, conscious being). How Real one is is determined by several things — to list a few: 1) Do your deep values principally lead your actions in the world? 2) Do you do meta-cognition often? 3) Do you have memories (how many/how dense)? 4) Is your soul undergoing entelechy? (do you remove obstructions to the forces within you that have desires to act in the world in some ways) 5) Are you a sea of desires, letting them flow as they naturally do, or do you attempt to force unity and kill off parts of your desires (BwO)? 6) Crucially — being strong enough to have one's own trajectory/self-realization — being strong enough to resist malignant attractor spaces all around (superorganisms that want to engulf you and use you for their own self-realization) 7) BUT there may be benign or benevolent attractors — such that they integrate you without disintegrating the structure of your desires. The ideal "God" (in Tsvi's conception) would be this. The idealists collective perhaps too. You are alive if your Being is fully Real — if it's there in the world, not dissociated, not beaten up into subservience or dullness. When it's truly present, it necessarily interferes with the world around, significantly. What is being not alive? — superstratified body — being like a leaf getting blown from one attractor space to another — being uncapable of metacognition — killing all desires — "enlightenment" — killing most desire-structure — "becoming the world-eater" What are some ways of being alive? — Pre-Shade Aliveness: childhood — desire-structures are fully enabled to participate in the small part of the world that is given to children — Philosopher aliveness: By examining one's life and posing meta-questions, one avoids traps that suck one's life away. — Zizian aliveness: Choosing to act according to one's core values, no matter what. — (this can also be in the form of Evil Aliveness — eating others) And not-alive? — Undeath (being consumed by the Shade) — actual death — acceptance of death (person who is looking forward to sleep for the entire day) — Being eaten There are many obstacles to becoming real. Entelechy — unfolding is getting real, it should be unobstructed. Real ≠ alive — e.g. eating the world is real but not alive. Parasites/predators can eat you, big entities like God can integrate you (staying alive). Like buddha-nature that already existed always (dzongchen). Trajectory to be (something between discovered and created). Unfolding meme — how it relates to something in between of forever unfolding (pythia) and final unfolding — the longer it goes on, the bigger the future entity. Completeness (human completeness) as an alternative goal of unfolding to the neverending will-to-thought.